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I'm staying in my brother's house and there has been so many instances where something weird happened that I'm starting to think there's indeed a presence in this house.

They all happen in the second floor and the stairs to the third floor but never in the third floor or the first one, even tho the first floor is darker and scarier. I've slept there many times and nothing ever happens.

Now the second floor is another story... The balcony's door opening by itself, hearing steps when there's no one in the house, extremely loud noises of something falling to the floor, noises of the chairs in the dining room being moved, and knocking noises on the second floor's bedroom.

I've slept in that bedroom with a friend, all night long knocking noises that are too ambiguous to know where they specifically come from, sometimes the knocking is faster and then it slows down. The scariest thing is that my friend asked it to stop and it indeed stopped for a few seconds before it starting again... I swear I almost peed myself.

Paris, Venice, Disneyland are not enjoyable destinations anymore. They're packed with people blocking the way to take a stupid picture for social media. It's so narcissistic, you're not there to admire the art in museums or the architecture but to take a picture of yourself next to it 🫩

The worst part? That other non mainstream locations are also getting packed with people every year because of these people sharing it on social media. Slovenia, a country that's supposed to have modest tourism is now full of people that are making the bus services crash because they're not prepared for this amount of tourists

You'd think the heat waves in Europe would hinder tourism but for some reason there's still even more people coming every year. I swear that if I hear another German tourist speak with that goofly deep voice of theirs I'm going to crash out.

Reddit has this stereoytipe of being a niche community of insufferable internet chuds while Twitter was seen as more mainstream.

Now nowadays, this is completely different. Maybe it's the generational change and Gen Z men ruined Twitter, but it's like it got invaded by 4Chan mentally unstable losers and edgelords.

Reddit is a much more sensitive place, sometimes even too much, but I prefer people to be overly sensitive or offended over "Haha kill yourself liberal, and fuck women in video games women don't deserve to exist 👨🫃🏻"

Lately it feels like edgelords and trolls are multiplying, they used to be a minority of men no one cared about because they would drown in their own misery. But now they're like the average Instagram/Twitter user and you can see them on YouTube as well posting their opinions on lengthy debates.

I transitioned 9 years ago and these symptoms started to me around 4 years in. Usually they're not talked about in trans spaces despite being documented.

1. Lower body temp than people who aren't on HRT despite not feeling the cold. Sometimes I even feel hot despite my body being 36.5°C

2. Terrible blood pressure, my nails on my fingers and toes are always purple-ish and the nails grow thin and weak.

3. Dry skin.

4. Extreme dry eyes, they actually cause me vision loss.

5. Bruising, random bruises appearing on my thighs out of nowhere. One day I fell on my knees and even tho it wasn't a hard fall I got a terrible black bruise on my knee.

6. Dizziness, people report headaches more often but I don't get those as often as dizziness.

Some people say "wow HRT made me feel so good" and I'm here feeling like a corpse in recent rigor mortis 💀

For some reason when I'm talking to an American from the North East and the fact that I'm mixed comes up they always say they aren't white they're actually native because his grandpa once mentioned something about a Cherokee ancestor.

It's always Cherokee, no other tribe but that one. And it's always the whitest looking person ever, straight up 6ft tall blue eyed and blond guy.

I get it, I'm mostly white too, Spanish and Slavic. But even tho I'm not mostly native American I still look native enough that people think I'm Asian.

But when your ancestry has been so diluted over the generations... You're not native. It's not just that you don't look native, it's also that you don't even participate in the culture.

Dude you're just a farm boy from Philadelphia you're probably more Amish than Cherokee, if that supposed ancestor is even real at all and not just some random claim by some of your ancestors to have a "right over these lands".

As another trans woman it has been so hard for me to connect with other trans women because of this.

I'm very critical of men and the way they behave in our society, and my cis girl friends and gay male friends almost always agree.

Now every time I bring this up to trans friends they jump to defend men, girl why are you defending men when they're literally the ones killing trans women and cis women at exponential rates and you're telling me that men don't have a problem??

I genuinely don't understand that need they have to defend men...

I met up with this guy who I met on social media, I assumed he knew I'm trans because it's all over my profile.

Well imagine my face when he asks if I'm taking the pill. So I had to stop him there and tell him that I'm trans.

Good thing he didn't mind, but it was such an embarrassing moment at first because I was like "what pill are you talking about?" 😭

I watch some YouTube channels that narrate crime events while doing makeup, to some people this might sound weird but it's actually very comforting because it feels as if it was a friend telling you something that happened while you eat or do your own makeup yourself.

But I'm starting to notice that listening to these terrible things happening makes me more wary around other people in situations where normally I wouldn't be overthinking so much. I'm scared about making friends in uni because what if any of them ends up being dangerous people?

This also translates to dating, I stopped going on dates because I keep thinking I'll end up meeting my future murderer or rapist.

I'm even scared to meet my friend group this summer, we are going to a holiday chalet to spend some days in that house. I obviously know nothing is going to happen but I have this small worry that "what if they're just plotting to kill me in that house" I might sound like I'm crazy right now.

But I can't keep thinking that these paranoid thoughts would have saved a lot of the people in those true crime cases.

Anyone with a similar experience or am I schizophrenic? 😂

The only way I'll ever have children is through adoption but it seems most guys want biological children.

Most of the guys I met would say that they fear that they wouldn't see an adopted child as theirs which honestly breaks my heart a little.

I did some research and apparently most adoptive parents generally chose that option because the man is infertile, not the other way around.

So it would seem like most men are only contemplating adoption if they're infertile themselves but if their partner is they'll prefer to just get a different girlfriend over adopting kids.

Let me know if you think this is not the case, I want to believe you.

I'm not a political person but I've noticed that for example Reddit has a more left leaning moderation in comparison to what X (Twitter) is.

For example, if someone does hate speech against LGBT people on X and you report them the moderation team will tell you that the content didn't break the rules and guidelines, but if you as an LGBT person answer to the homophobic conservatives with the same energy you'll get a 24 hours suspension from posting or interacting.

I've personally experienced this many times and it's making me so annoyed specially since there's huge accounts on X that are dedicated to spread extreme hate even wishing death on other people.

I've been thinking about it for some years now and I'm 100% sure that I'm not overthinking. My aunt's boyfriend is actually kind of a nice guy he's not a toxic type of guy, he actually comes off as very emotionally in touch with his feelings. Which is great considering my aunt's last boyfriend was actually kind of toxic.

But ever since some years ago I've noticed something odd about him, he does some things, some little gestures that makes it obvious that he is actually kind of attracted to me in some way.

He would acknowledge that I'm pretty but that's not something weird that's something a family member could say. The issue here is that sometimes he is too touchy. He'd touch my waist and say "oh your waist is so tiny", that's a part of my body that he touches a lot, like one time when I was playing football-in and he hugged my waist from the back.

Another weird thing is when he touches my feet, he does that the most and I don't fucking know why. When I'm laying on the sofa he will touch my feet and he once said that my feet are very soft, which I was confused about because why would feet not be soft? It was just such a weird comment.

Now the last time that something like this happened was two days ago, we were playing some board games with the whole family and I couldn't concentrate because he was touching me with his hand on my leg.

And this was the last thing that made me really weirded out and I'm not confusing this because this is the kind of thing he does to my aunt and doesn't do to anyone else other than her and me, he doesn't do it to my little brother, he doesn't do it to my mom or my dad or anyone else.

I've mentioned this to my parents and they don't take it seriously, so I didn't insist too much because I really am afraid that I might cause problems inside the family.

And I actually don't think he's a bad guy, it's normal to feel attracted to other people other than your partner sometimes, and my aunt and I look kind of similar in appearance. But what's wrong is that you shouldn't act on it, you shouldn't do this kind of behavior.

As I mentioned in a previous post, I (Gen Z) was a parentified kid. My parents (millennials) didn't actually raise my younger brother... They didn't even parent him.

My brother is 12 now and I've always noticed that he lacks a lot of basic skills, like making his own breakfast, using a microwave or even closing a window. I used to think it was because he has ADHD that he doesn't know how to do basic stuff and I was made to do everything for him as a kid.

But after him having friends over and seeing their behavior... It's not just my brother, these kids are genuinely slow sometimes.

The conclusion I ended up with was that being raised by phones, tablets and computers instead of parents drove these kids away from the real world. So now they look like versions of Mr Bean, or like aliens that have never been on Earth (yes genuinely like that, it's not even an exaggeration these 11-12 year olds struggled to pour themselves a glass of water)

Now I've seen some millennials trying to pretend this is just the general trend of older generations hating on the younger ones... But it's not just that, when I was my brother's age I was able to take care of a toddler, an animal and the house chores, these kids can't even fix themselves a basic snack without making a mess.

It's so sad that their parents have destroyed their social and basic skills like that.