Slept with my hand under my head and my wrist is feeling fucky. I guest I can tick off 'injury while sleeping' on the over 40 list of bullshit.

Finally!

Was supposed to study today but have a migraine. Hopefully it'll be gone soon.

Landed another interview Thursday so that's 2 this week!

I was just thinking.. imagine heaven like they show in movies and shows and stuff where there are people in white clothes up amongst the clouds with harps and stuff. Except imagine the weather is like it actually is at that altitude. Just super windy and really cold.

Anyway just thinking about my grandad. Miss you, pop.

Bad day to be working from home with no heating. Hands and feet are CHILLY.

Ooh. Apparently there's a meeting happening right now to decide what they're going to do with the new kid and how they'll manage the outcomes of it for me.

The results will be either: A. I should suck it up and go home B. He should suck it up and stop breaking the rules C. The department should suck it up and move him elsewhere

I didn't really share very much about exactly how it was affecting me here, because it's the sort of thing that I feel like will make me sound entitled and like a snowflake. But his move in and the resulting chaos really did affect me. I think it actually affected me more than when I was at the last place and things were really abusive, because back then I didn't miss stability, because I never had any to begin with. But now I've had a chance to be in a stable and supportive place where I don't need to always have an ear out of my headphones in case shit hits the fan, or barricade my door for safety, or have to sleep light so I don't get woken up by cops shining a light in my face after opening the wrong room. It was really hard to adjust to that again, and I completely lost all will and motivation to do anything, even eat and drink.

I'm fairly happy in this hotel, and things are going well again, but I do wonder if it was a good idea to agree to come here. After all, I will probably just walk back into the same shit show I did after returning from my holiday last time. And I'm not sure I can handle the constant yoyo-ing

Want to be my cat today. Day of napping on the couch, right in front of the heating…..

Bit of a disappointing work today. On Friday I messed up a spreadsheet by simply copying and pasting things wrong. However, I didn't pick up on it until late today, when I had already done a heap of work on it (and spent the whole time wondering why it was throwing so many errors). I really felt like I dropped a notch in my manager's eyes, as I had to bring them in to work with me to fix the sheet, not to mention other people who I showed the report to who picked up on the same thing. Ever since my interview for this role, i've been approached by people in different departments saying 'they've heard a lot of good things about me' - apparently someone on the panel has spread word that I'm some fantastic contributor to the role, and now I feel like that reputation has been tarnished because I couldn't figure out a very simple mistake. Sigh. Wish I could just undo the last few days.

Thanks for all the lovely wishes you guys 🥲 I had a long day at work which isn't how I usually like to spend it - but it was a really good day nevertheless; I got a free bun quietly added to my bag at the bakery on my walk to work, my colleagues utterly spoiled me with gifts, had a few wins, and I treated myself to Inside Out 2 which was awesome (if a little pat near the end). So many emotions thinking about how it's been so hard to accept parts of myself. It's just the film I needed to feel more accepting about where I'm at and less torn up about where my sense of self and core values went...

It turns out it was option D - the option I never mentioned.

They're going to move him out, but not yet. They said he currently has a 2 week transition to the next place, but that still needs to be officially confirmed. Apparently it won't be longer.

In the meantime it looks like I'll be staying in this hotel. Although I did ask if I may be able to move to one with a washing machine because I don't want to have to handwash things.

Apparently they also told the other kid a number of my concerns I'd expressed in my email (but hadn't actually told him) and he got angry and started threatening me. So that'd probably be why I'm staying here until he leaves. Before this we were on more of a neutral footing, now he has an active dislike for me. So that's nice I guess

Good morning friendship pals! The sun is shining(somewhere), the birds are chirping(but not so much), and HOPEFULLY my delivery is coming today. "Transferred at Sunshine West" yeah you BETTER BE.

I had a dream where robots invaded the earth so that was cool and I fully support then in their hobbies.

Moobeans has had more painkiller/antinausea shots and has started eating a little more! Cracking open a tin of Fancy Feast also helped. Vets say it's like feeding them McDonalds but if it gets her eating and taking her regular medication that's fine.

Another beautiful sunrise

I have a very strong opinion about the nuclear power debate. It’s new-clear. Not nuke-you-luer, not noo-cloo-la, not newk-yah-lah.

big pot of minestrone is on the stove

and my hands are cold

Washed my hands after throwing away the corned beef plastic wrapper. Water was cold but think nothing of it. Realize I need to pee so I go to the bathroom, stand there, pull it out (as ya do) and then YELP and jump 20 feet into the air. Yeah so turns out the water had made my hands VERY cold...

I had a super vivid dream that I was really really high and tripping out. High in both senses because I was laying on the roof of a tall apartment building and it seemed to be bending over to tip me off. I felt the actual fear and that feeling you get of when you're about to fall off something but had to keep trying to tell myself it was in my head but it wasn't working. I was holding on for my life!

I decided due to my current cough/sniffle combination to call in sick for tomorrow. Risotto will be cooked in a few minutes and I plan to waste the rest of the evening watching videos before going to bed happily knowing I can sleep in as long as I want to. It would be a lot more relaxing plan if I didn't keep sneezing. Mr Woof is not a fan of sneezes and has already evacuated the lounge room.

Oooh, apparently the final season of Snowpiercer is going to begin releasing next month! Oh I'm so excited, I was so pissed off with how it was cancelled right on a cliffhanger.

It's one of my favourite shows, probably because

T R A I N S

Got my covid booster within six months no questions asked beside my date of birth (I'm 22) and name. Apparently pharmacies don't follow the rules? I'm only allowed to get it every 12 months lol

I don't understand why I still have some residual sniffles... I was like the first one to get sick, and that happened 15 days ago, but was probably infected about 19 or 20 ago

It's been a very exciting day today. I have folded laundry, emptied the cat litter bin and sprayed poison liberally around the yard. Now I'm pondering the question of whether to change into a slightly heavier top before walking the dog.

there's a road closed off near my house. Its well documented, signs everywhere ect. And the amount of people who drive past 6 or 7 signs only to get to the actual closure and go "Oh. shit. I guess I have to U turn" is crazy! The cops should just stand their and just be taking licenses off these folks cause they are showing 0 situational awareness.

Sometimes is stare into the pantry looking for snacks. But I’m the one that does the shopping so I should know what’s in there. I guess I’m hoping something will magically appear or that I have forgotten something my past self bought.