Asklemmy

Prefacing this by saying this is in no way directed towards you/meant to undermine your post, but IQ really is racist pseudoscience. "Low IQ" is always used as a cudgel against people who otherwise do not come across as unintelligent (such as yourself, imo) to discredit them. I'm thinking of a lot of instances of young Black people who have been subjected to the criminal justice system and their demands for autonomy being dismissed with BS "low IQ" claims (despite the fact that they come across perfectly eloquently in their writings).

I don't have personal experience with addiction so I can't give targeted advice there, but I know there is support out there to help people overcome addictions. If you're worried about getting a job, definitely you can learn a trade, find an apprenticeship or something like that. I do also have a diagnosed learning disability btw, and didn't finish high school because of it, and in my opinion the only ways that has held me back is through school systems refusing to accommodate for my learning style. I've had no problem self-teaching myself skills aligning with my interests like programming. I'm not saying that applies to all intellectually disabled people, but evaluating your intelligence by school performance is a really shit way to do so especially if you have any kind of learning disability or neurodiversity. Some years at school I would get Cs and Ds, some years at school I would get straight A*s; is it more likely that my intelligence wildly fluctuated between years, or more likely that there are so many circumstantial factors that affect academic performance far more than inherent intelligence?

Crack your knuckles, solve your problems your own way, stop comparing yourself to other people, ditch the drugs, and turn your life around. You're the main character; this has been episode 1, now let's do episode 2.

I think part of your problem is you're comparing yourself to others that are different to you. It's like thinking you're lesser because you're not a tall basketball player, when you're not meant to be a basketball player. IMO if you can hold a steady job to pay yhe bills that's probably the first thing. Then a good way to get off the drugs is to focus on exercise and eating healthy. If you can keep that up for a year theoretically you should feel a lot better about yourself. Maybe get into reading books as well. Even the most trashy of books.

I have a 15+ year resume in my field and I struggled to find a job this year. It's not because of you that finding a job is hard. It's that job sites are like dating sites: the majority of posts are fake. You should decide on what kind of job you want and approach recruiters in that field - even with, maybe especially with, your requirements, they'll be able to help you better than clicking auto-apply on LinkedIn.

There is plenty of hope, you just got mixed up with the wrong people under the wrong circumstances. The right society will only judge you for your character.

Don't focus on your IQ. I mean that could be a handicap for yoy but we all have handicaps here or there. IQ is seen as so important but it is just one thing in a multitude of factors. Do you like any kind of art? Music? Nature? How are your emotions? Sports? I bet you have something where you thrive and feel inspired. Explore that. Practice that. Focus on developing your skills in that. If you really try, tomorrow you will be able to teach people about this that you love and do so beautifully. Life is oh so complex. Multiple paths. Also! Keep an eye on emotions, trauma and your psychological health. Try to find any kind of psychological help you can afford. You know drugs are not good but they are trying to fill a hole. Find that hole and fill it with consciousness, love for yourself and something you like to do.

This process could take many years. But start walking towards healing and thriving. Maybe it will take much shorter that you think.

Good luck. If you have a sense of spirituality, that could also help you a lot.

first of all, there are people that relate to you, and cherish you and love you. i was quite happy to see that most people here were supportive of you and overcoming this bad moment on your life (because that's what it is, a moment. it won't last forever). you have value in yourself and there's no greater justification in living than knowing that you deserve to live and be who you are simply because you exist, and you are, period. you yourself amount to many important things and if people don't value you for who you are, screw them, who weren't able to cherish that beautiful complexity on yourself.

that being said, you need help. and the first thing to tackle is, like others have said, overcoming your addiction. there are several ways of getting help on this: many community centers, even in the united states, keep narcotics anonymous groups on their premises. serious groups will have a way with providing you with medical assistance, which will be needed;

• if, and only if, you are comfortable with going to a place of worship, they often receive meetings of n.a. groups, and serious priests, pastors, rabbis, imams, nuns and monks can give you some direction on where to find help without asking anything in exchange. stay away from sects such as scientology;
• from there, you can get the psychological and psychiatric help that you need to better cope with the adhd, being able to live with it and improve your learning and social skills;
• social services can help you find a job, qualification and help you if there's any trouble;
• take advantage of everything that's free in order to better yourself, such as courses and books that are available at your local libraries;
• and most importantly, a day at a time. you will find some difficulties, especially with divesting your old ways, but stand for yourself first and foremostly. some days will be harder than others. learn to forgive yourself and others for things that did not went right, but you don't have to accept anyone back into your life if they didn't changed their ways that have hurt you so much. here and there you will take falls, but find the strength to start over, and over, and over. you're not perfect, but that's ok! who is, anyway?

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