Melbourne

Anxiety has been bad today. I’m not even thinking about you know what. It’s just there with the rest of my life and everything is making it worse.

I forced myself to quickly go out for newspaper to line plant pots but they didn’t have any. Some dodgy characters around but luckily nothing came of it.

I’ve planted two of the largest zucchini seedlings out but ran out of potting mix and energy because those pots were pretty big. I don’t eat much or exercise enough for physical work like lifting and shoveling so now feeling kind of shaky… but I kind of had to move and do something.

Also they’re growing fast and I don’t think I can keep all of them.

I wish you could get smaller size seed packs or a bundle with like a few seeds of each type. Maybe a seed library could sort me out but I think that’s enough ‘outside’ for now.