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What I'm about to say is really bad, I understand if you view me as a selfish person. I am. (lemmings.world)

submitted 6 months ago by anthony@lemmings.world to c/goodoffmychest@lemmy.world

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Here's why I think I'm a selfish person. I have really bad intrusive thoughts, I need to speak with a therapist on this, too. If I were given the choice between Choice A) Anything I want/a million dollars but I have to kill my friend(s) or B) My friend(s) stay(s) alive but I don't get what I want, I would probably kill my friend. Especially when pressured. But I'm complex. I value human life, pretty much, or any life in general, and don't want to kill anybody. I would just kill when or if necessary and if I didn't get caught. I still care about my friendships though, so I don't say I'm gonna kill them or go out of my way to harm them or our friendship. I would really prefer to have all my friends as is but I feel like if pressured enough between two choices, I would kill to get what I want. I'm so ashamed of this, I feel SO bad.

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[–] HubertManne@piefed.social 1 points 6 months ago

You know im kinda a passivist. Im not even sure if someone can be a pacifist until their dead. Its kinda like an inverse of the whole recovering alcholic thing. Until you don't have the capacity to kill anyone its hard to say if someone will ultimately be a pacifist. Its like you try to be a pacifist or want to be a pacifist. I also say kinda because its something that im more determined with the older I get. I mean I have not killed or seriously hurt anyone intentionally so far in my life. Why would I want to have that on me now. Even when young though its like. What do we live. 100 years rounding. Very unlikely to be able to in that last 20 or first 10. I mean what do you actually get from it. Yeah you have the genie setup of a million dollars (which ah is not really so much nowadays. Don't get me wrong its a lot but if your young it won't necessarily allow you to not work the rest of your life unless you keep pretty modest.) but that is just not reality. We create ourselves by our actions every moment of every day and again like the alcoholic you can not be one, or be one, or be a recovering one. Every action has that virginity thing. Once you do it, it is a part of who you are. You can vow to never do it again but not erase what is done.