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I’ve realized that I’m one of those people who always demands too much of themselves. I’m constantly thinking that I’m not doing enough and that I need to be doing more.

Recently, all this exhaustion finally caught up with me, and I got sick. I thought it was a perfect excuse to finally relax: just play video games, do nothing, and actually enjoy myself.

So, I started playing games and tried to stop guilt-tripping myself for being "unproductive." Around the same time, my brother told me that this "cult of productivity" mostly serves capitalists — they want you to keep improving so they can get more out of you for the same pay. They want you to spend your energy becoming "better" instead of actually resting.

I thought that after a week of being sick, I’d be ready to jump back into my usual hobbies. But I wasn't. Now, I don't even know if I actually like programming or self-hosting anymore. Did I ever really enjoy it, or did I just convince myself I did?

It’s been two or three weeks now, and I’m still doing almost nothing. I’m starting to doubt everything I was interested in. I just wanted to share these feelings and ask: has anyone else been in a situation like this? Where you just don’t know what you’re doing it for anymore?

Thanks for listening.

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[–] lowspeedchase@lemmy.dbzer0.com 23 points 3 months ago

Sounds like mild depression... Don't be too hard on yourself but don't slip into malaise either - set a goal that is outside of your normal routine, maybe running for 10 minutes without a break, maybe stretching and getting to new level of flexibility, maybe a daily 10 minute meditation routine. Best of luck shaking it off!