Hi. I don't know where to post this, so I decided to post on this community on Lemmy. If I posted on Reddit, I'd probably get shit on or they'd delete my post because it keeps saying "removed by filters".
Anyway, I'm not asking for a 100% diagnosis and I will tell a medical professional.
So, I suddenly started feeling disorganized thoughts and started thinking illogically. This does happen sometimes. If I were to talk to someone, I'd have very impulsive, emotional behaviors and I would definitely say things I normally wouldn't say otherwise. I'm trying to calm down from it and talk about it because I WILL explode if I bottle it up.
I will feel really energetic and happy like I have recently, full of ideas but unsure where to start. It does sorta feel like my ADHD due to not being able to focus and not doing things that are "boring" or too analytical.
Well, then I started having some pretty bad intrusive thoughts. I couldn't shake the feeling, though I knew it didn't logically make sense, that everyone was acting weird and was trying to hurt me. Sometimes, when people change their tone or act weird, I think I'm in a different dimension, one of the things my brain tries to convince me.
There was one time I really felt motivated and thought I could be like Indiana Jones.
One time, about 2 years ago, I was going through a rough period and I think I'd gotten diagnosed with bipolar later in that year. Well, I can't tell if it's anxiety, mania, or psychosis signs, but I genuinely couldn't shake the feeling that my friends acting different was because they'd been replaced by aliens or I was sent to some sort of dimension/universe where my friends didn't exist and had been replaced by evil people, rather than just the logical conclusion that they were upset, which turned out to actually be that they were cruel pieces of shit, but that's beside the point.
Before I get into it I would strongly encourage you to speak with a mental health professional as soon as you can. If you're currently experiencing the paranoia and delusions you described most major hospitals have an emergency mental health department and those things definitely qualify as an emergency.
What you're describing sound a lot like manic episodes. Disorganized thinking, paranoia, and delusions are all strong indicators you might be having a manic episode. Other things to watch out for are impulsivity and a reduced need for sleep.
If you are imagining the people around you turning on you or being replaced by aliens or that you have traveled to another dimension those can be strong indicators your manic episode is severe enough to require medical intervention.
If you've already got a bipolar diagnosis the psychosis is explained as that is one of the halmark features of a severe manic episode. You didn't mention if you are taking medication for the bipolar, but you should strongly consider adjusting your meds or starting some. I speak from personal experience as someone else with bipolar, the meds help tremendously.