That sucks. But I get it. If I had the disability option earlier in life I may have taken it. But I didn't know I was Autistic or ADHD or any of the other stuff. I just thought I was lazy and a bad person. And in a small town in the US it would have meant being stuck with no public transportation or enough money to really survive. I was unhoused for a bit, but got lucky an ex invited me to a city rent free for a month that I was able to find more steady work. It sucked, but I got through and ended up getting by at least until I eventually found a supportive partner to help me through the gaps. But things could definitely have turned out way different without the generosity of people around me. I hope life treats you better in the future.