Melbourne

It's cold and foggy in Mildura!

I suppose Happy Anniversary aussie.zone is in order. Our mates over the Tasman had theirs a week ago, and they had a cool post of all the exciting stuff that happened in the year. I don't remember anything, though.

So you guys feel free to reminisce about the neat stuff you've seen on Lemmy over the past year and I'll happily be reminded of all the stuff I've forgotten.

Heading to the tote tonight to catch up with a very old workmate. Haven't had a night out in around 6 months.

Actually just excited to dress nice lol

I had a dream where I made and ate a burger consisting of two hashbrowns, beetroot, lettuce, tomato, shredded carrot, grilled pineapple, and tofu with avocado and now I want to try that

It was so fucking nice to get out of the house on a weekend!

And now I have a new friend and someone to go out and see gigs with!

Maybe my luck really is starting to turn around.

Oh my god how is it this fucking cold?!?!?! Admittedly my rental has no insulation, but still lol

I made a hot chocolate for my daughter because she's studying and I realised I've never actually made a hot chocolate before so I winged it. Completed the job with marshmallows on the side.

Alright I've been back for about 24 hours now so it's time to start whinging. It's not even the cold that's getting me down (this alpaca woollen jumper is almost too warm), IT'S THE GREY. IT'S 1PM AND I'VE HAD MY LIGHTS ON ALL DAY. So bleak outside. Give me back my sun!

I have a bunch of chores to do like packing away all my summer items, moving pots back to my (fixed) balcony and tidying up the thoroughly messy carport, heaps of laundry, changing bedsheets, washing the bird poop off my car from just before I left (bad timing, it's been on the car for 2.5 weeks now)...

Looking at the weather I think I can put it all off to Monday. And so I shall. I deserve a day of doing nothing (but maybe I'll get the car washed today and do a bit of laundry). (and sort out the presents.)

I don't believe in a God but if I did, this product existing would be like spitting in God's face.

Before you ask; of course I bought some.

Cheers everyone 🍺

Mickey, I see your tail peeking out from the doorway,
Mickey, I see your face from the corners of my hallway,
Stalking me down the corridors of my home
You're freaking me out, waiting to get me alone

You hunt me down like a mouse,
You think it's real neat
When you pounce around my house
And swipe at my feet

Mickey, I see you crouched underneath my desk,
Mickey, I see you hunched like a household pest
You're freaking me out, waiting to get me alone
Stalking me down the corridors of my home

Dinner tonight is a very upmarket smoked salmon, leek & potato quiche from the ARC cafe. Piedmontes had them on special. I had a portion yesterday - tonight I will nom the remainder. Seriously yum even heated up in the air fryer. If you see these, check them out - good enough to pretend you made it yourself. Hoax cuisine at its finest.

I skipped dinner last night so I could get an early night. I did manage 9.5 hours, but starting the trip off with 4ish has absolutely screwed me over. I'm still really tired ☹️

sat on soda soaked into the seat on the train so now im standing in front of some ads waiting for it to dry so i dont look like i peed myself

I wish that I could've talked it out with him. Respected his need for space and realised he was ignoring me because of that, not because he didn't love me. I wish I could've articulated better to him that I was panicking that week. I wish I wasn't so nasty about it to him in the end and had a civil discussion. I wish he didn't give up so easily and that he communicated better as well.

I wish I was over it. People have said I should be over it by now. Everytime I go out, I get paranoid that I'll see him or any of his people. Anyone that looks remotely like him, I get paranoid and think it's him. I see a car like his or drive through nearby areas and think that I'll see him. Worrying about it makes it happen twice or some quote along those lines. I want to forget.

The past is in the past. It is what it is. There is nothing I can do to change it, even if I so desperately want to. When the logical part of my brain kicks in, I realise it's normal to miss someone you cared about a lot, even if you don't want them back. It just shows you cared. As for the fears, easier said than done, but I need to realise that time will help me get over it. If I do ever see him again, it might be painful, knowing that in some time, he's going to be building a life with someone that isn't me. On the flip side, I get to build my own life, and probably a better life than what I would build with him.

I've been chatting with an online friend I made recently and even they will tell me that they're going to be busy and actually reply to my long spiels of shit, even though I have absolutely no expectations about any of that. I didn't even have to say anything at all. I realise now that I shouldn't have had to ask for that much reassurance, and even though I think I would lean towards anxiously attached (in relationships), I was dealing with someone who couldn't give me the time of day, leading to blows to my self-esteem and me overthinking.

yesterday I started doing special spine exercises as well as starting to make sure I used my back properly, no slouching, careful lifting, etc etc

it will probably take a while to see results but it's a life time change so that's ok

in the meantime neighbour partied until 3 am 😩

Ahh... after all that fretting it's time to do some relaxing art study. Today we draw perspective!

puts own head through wall

Woooo despite weathers best efforts got 90% of the pool table disassembled and shifted to the basement instead of the garage (haven't moved the top, too damp for felt), got the uprights cut for the server rack and a bunch of space cleared. That's my mild goals for the long weekend knocked off and fuck all else i have to do.

Breakfast 🍏🍎🍐🍊🍋🍈🫐🍓🍇🍉🍌🍒🍑🥭🍍🥥🥦🥑🫛🍆🍅🥝🥬🥒🌽🥕🥐🍠🫚🥔🧅🥯🍞🥖🥨🧀🧇🥞🧈🍳🥚🥓🥩🍗🍖🫓🍕🍟🍔🌭🥙🧆🌮🌯🥗🍲🍜🍝🥘🍛🍣🍱🥟🦪🍥🍘🍚🍙🐠🍤🪼🦀🐙 🍗🥮🍢🍡🍧🍰🧁🥧🍦🍨🎂🍮🍭🍬🍫🥜🌰🍪🍿🍯🥛☕️🍵🍺🍶🥤🧋🧃🥂🍷🥃🍸🍹🧉🔋

Took some time to do some work and will try and spread it out over the next few days so I can have an extra day off.

I think I’m more productive when I’m at home, especially when I get to do it when I’m listening to my regular weekend radio spots.

I get too distracted at work when I need to concentrate on stuff.

At the moment I’m working at roughly double the speed than if I was at work. I guess I didn’t bring enough home to work a full day due to that…oops!

Another day of the trip done! Today was alright. We went on a river cruise from Mildura to Wentworth (a 30 minute drive), but by paddle steamer it is a 6 hour ride. I'm honestly kind of struggling, it's feeling rather isolating being the only one under 18 and about 10 years younger than the next youngest person. I mean, although I sometimes joke about it, I'm not anti old people or anti adults. But it's hard to try and connect with people so much older than me. It's also shared tables on everything. Dinner, breakfast, 6 hour boat rides, everything.

It's also a bit of a struggle since the tour was specifically designed for adults, although not adults only. Everything revolves around drinking. Every morning there's complimentary champagne, every night before dinner there's pre drinks that run for about an hour. If you don't do pre drinks, you struggle to get a seat. Tomorrow we're spending 2 hours at a wine tasting place with no alternate activity available. I know it's not the end of the tour, but it's kind of a buzz kill watching everybody else drink for 2 hours straight while I get to stand in the garden and look at their grapes, maybe get a can of coke if I'm lucky.

I think I'm pretty set on not wanting to do big group tours again either. I mean they've chosen some good activities, and doing (or at least paying for) everything is the only way to go on the train, which is the only reason I was interested in coming. The train trip is fun, and some of the activities are fun, but the boat was not fun, and really formal group dinners are not fun.

Also a couple of people came onto the train sputtering and I'm starting to feel it too. I'm not sick sick yet, just starting to get a feeling. Most of the train was coughing and sniffling today, so I think I've definitely got something, and there doesn't seem much sense in dropping out of the activities since everybody else is already sick, but I'll still feel like a dick for it

My son and I have started going to the gym a few months back.

It's a local one so always a chance of running into people we know, and definitely kids from my son's school.

Went today and at one point I saw him kind of go away in a corner. I asked what's wrong and turns out there were a couple of girls from his glass next to where we gonna work out. I understood his embarassment and went back to get my water bottle so we can move on.

Overheard one of the girls talking about my son and how she thinks he's cute. He's got a fairly uncommon name, so it was definitely him.

I didn't tell him yet, cause he's a teen and easily embarrassed.

Should I? I'll talk to my daughter (his older sister) and ask her advice.

He was super shy at the gym, so I'm guessing he might have a crush on the girls.

Parenting, eh?

I registered for the Melbourne Property expo this weekend. I probably won't end up going but it would be interesting to see all the worst people you know in one place

Most obnoxious Ikea delivery ever.

Have one of those horrible old buzzers that are really unpleasant. Like scare you half to death when they go off. The delivery guy doesn’t just press it once or twice politely, but proceeds to press it multiple times and then long presses it twice.

Can’t remember wanting to kick someone this much in a long time. Face, preferably.

Vit. D deficiency detected.

Which naturally means..

A rave choon:

Chase the sun

Listening to Tron legacy while I'm trying to scrub macfee. I wasn't even on my computer when it uploaded. 😡

I was gonna try making some apricot chicken tonight but the chickens still frozen as heck, so looks like we’re doing frozen fish and chips instead.