Melbourne

Thanks for the support yesterday everyone. I had a decent night sleep and am feeling better.

Mickey says "brrrr?"

I get unreasonably irritated by the pop-up chats when online shopping. They obscure the screen in the worst positions to get your attention, and pop up within 5 seconds of landing on the site. No, I do not want to chat to ‘Hailey’. I just got here, put away your chat bot and let me browse please. And then it whines when trying to close the chat window, are you sure you want to close chat? Look mate, if I wanted to be harassed by aggressive sales staff I can do that in person, I don’t need the service extended to online shopping.

A weird side effect of going through winter carless is the mental health boost from the enforced walk when I have to go into work. Definitely doing better than normal so far. Who would have thought that exercise and a little natural light would do wonders.

Narrator: everyone....literally first or second on every mental health suggestion list...

I have a doctor I have to see every 2 weeks. She's an almost 4 hour round trip on public transport.

It fucking sucks, but she's amazing. First paycheck of new job, I'm getting a car.

I bought a lottery ticket. I would love to win my money back lol

Just retested. Still positive. Like TinyBreak, the line showed up before the liquid got to the top of the window.
Not surprised, as I'm still definitely symptomatic and the cats are being very cuddly. I just wish Sammi wouldn't kick litter all over...

went out for a walk yesterday, ached just a little afterward but today I am 100% better

Braved the chilly air and got my partner his anti-sads from the pharmacy. I love using the local pharmacy instead of the chain; they know me now and it's so lovely having a little chat with the pharmacist and the cashiers. A little jaunt around the block and back home with a warm coffee.

All is well.

Here's an odd one.

Random dude probably 20yo rocks up this morning, starts whipper-snippering the front lawn. I go out ask him wtf are you doing, he says sorry I got the wrong address jumps in his car and drives off...

I'm still scratching my head.

Went for a drive at lunch. On the way there I saw this... figure. Face totally covered, just sitting by the side of the road. Still there when I came back. Hadnt moved in 10 minutes so I figured I'd call the police non-emergency who directed me to 000. I'm really hoping it was just someone throwing out a sex doll or something. Now I'm worried it was just someone having a mental breakdown or something and I've made it worse by getting police/ambulance involved.

If I'm feeling better by the weekend, I think I want to go and get out and do something. I'm feeling a bit trapped and unhappy with what's happening here, so maybe going and doing... Something is a good idea.

I used to do things and go places, then I just sort of stopped. I mean, I still go places and do things, just not really solo anymore. But maybe a nice meal somewhere and a movie is what I need.

Today is payday, I'm starting at an overdraft of $50. Gonna suck, can't get the new shoes I've been needing a while(my current ones have holes, which is fine when it isn't cold.) But I think I'll be fine. Lots of cheap ramen in my future.

There's a few coppers outside my place and because I cant see because of my fence I opened the gate and asked what's going on. The one copper says "yeah ah just someone tryna get away. Don't worry we got him". I said "no worries" shut the gate.

It was right outside my drive way so I couldn't use my binoculars 😔

Mind you I went out in my cat pjs and what I describe as a native American woollen blanket with sleeves. It's an interesting little number.

well suddenly the feeling sick makes sense, that was the fastest positive line I've ever seen on a rat test. It wasn't even a minute!

I wish I could fit on a cat tree in front of the heater and be cute. Maybe in the next life.

Semi hoarder parent is being forced into Care. I’m to write a list of things I want retrieved. Very difficult since I’ve not been to this particular house and everything I can think of wanting is super susceptible to rats so probably doesn’t exist anymore.

Good very early morning. It's BRRRR.

Didn't really warm up today after a bungled site visit meant an hour in the cold without enough layers on. Total brain fog at work like I could barely remember my name let alone do my job. The sads are definitely hitting. I watched the last episode of Tales From The Loop which is sad enough itself, but somehow the thing that made me most emotional was seeing Cole walking the sunny meadows, flowers and grass waving in the breeze... I wanted to touch the sun...

Thinking back to the last few winters from 2020 on, they were all significant low points of the year - aside from getting my PR a bit over exactly a year ago. That was glorious until shtf in July at work.

Anyway, I know my risk factors, so I've arranged social things for all 3 of the next days, I'll try taking my meds again now that my sleep schedule has reset, and I'll prolly have a coffee at work tomorrow (green tea is not cutting it). I need external motivation to exercise, that's probably the biggest thing missing. If I get a decent tax return in July I think I'll look into a personal trainer for even a month, even though I'm very cagey/picky about such things.

Still stuffy and gross. Worked up a sweat just loading the dishwasher and taking the garbage to the chute! I'm working today though for the first time this week at least.

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It's so cold I don't want to do anything 😔

Supposed to go to the gym but it's freezing outside!

I'm still feeling crook :/

At this point it's mostly a gnarly cough and my nose turning red from all the tissues, but I was hoping I'd be better by now. Not COVID though, so that's a plus I suppose

Nooo. I put my tin of charcoal pencils on my bed to do a quick stick vac and then they fell off. Snapped the leads off two of them. And it was a tin with plastic grooves for them to sit in too, intended to protect them during transport. But they were sharpened shorter so there was room at the top allowing them to fall and break at a vertical angle.

I'll sharpen them again.

If I had the energy I'd get a small shallow wooden box with a closure, cut a piece of foam to wedge inside, and then make slashes in the foam to hold the sharpened charcoals gently in place. Perhaps hollow out the foam around the tips to allow space so it doesn't put any pressure on the most delicate part.

If I wasn't constantly so exhausted and depressed with no proper workspace I could make some cool things.

Edit: Also the art book I'm working through very slowly is like $40-50 on ebay. It feels like all of the really solid tradish art books are going out of print and becoming really expensive if they're even available. I did see a bundle of three similar ones for about the same price 🤔 To be honest it's still cheaper than the art classes I see

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