Melbourne

The oodie is Mickey's, always was.

Came home last night to this:

Mr P reckons he fell through his bed, tried to fix it and couldn't, and then smashed it up and threw it out onto the garden he's just spent ages trying to tidy up. Now he's sleeping on a mattress on the floor. I talked about getting a new bed, but my MIL said "how ridiculous! bloody leave him there and he can enjoy it!" With all the kerfuffle, nobody remembered to put the bins out 🤦🏼‍♀️😭

Changed the car insurance to a monthly payment, which costs a little more but is more manageable for me. With Elders therapy appointments, his laptop needing to be taken to get fixed, and the possibility of having to buy a new bed (and the Minipeelers are due new mattresses as well) the cheaper annual payment is not really an option anymore.

Good morning everyone! 🤣

I did it!!!! I sent the email AND I FEEL AMAZING. I couldn't figure out how to explain that I sent this way past when I should have, so I just opened the email with this:

Hi,

Thank you for your patience over the past few months, I was unable to finish writing a reply due to force majeure.

sentence about what the email is about

With this new request there is ample documentation, coherent and eloquent arguments, all accompanied with supporting evidence that should imbue a greater sense of understanding regarding the request upon reading.

Regards, name

Attached with literally what I had wrote all those months ago (polished with an hour of proof reading + fixing up citations). It was this easy to do, but apparently it was easier to have panic attacks instead... I'm just so glad it's over, now I can finally read and action the "new" emails I have pilled up over the past couple of months!

I've been procrastinating sending off an important email for about three months now. I did 95% of the email (basically a structured essay with thorough citations) and got stat decs done to back it up, plus all the other supporting documents I need. Since then I've been having severe anxiety about finishing it every day and I haven't touched it since. My cursed ADHD + anxiety combo has had me in a vicious cycle of not doing anything about it yet worrying still. I'm kept up at night with the dread of not finishing such a simple task, completely helpless to and at the mercy of my shoddy executive functioning.

Today, I'm breaking that cycle. I'm fucking going to proof read it and send it off even if it's not "perfectly" done, it's going to happen despite all my brain's attempts at stopping it. I'm not happy with it, but it's better late and imperfect than never and forgotten.

This sounds stupid but I made a music section I've been trying to for almost 20 fucking years. I figured out the right formula after so much experimentation. I could hear it in my head but couldn't figure out the right ingredients to get it together.

It only goes for 30 seconds but it's been eluding me for so fucking long. And now it's done.

Fuck. Finally!!!!!!!

I have been on leave in the last week, travelling with an old family member (a farewell tour of sorts - I don't think she will be doing more big trips). I am feeling very melancholy. So glad I have been able to help her, and sad to see someone so strong and independent getting old and frail.

Anyway this is your lil Wednesday reminder to say thanks to your body, no matter how much trouble it gives you. Getting old sucks arse

I'll find out tomorrow apparently about the interview from yesterday. I've prayed to every deity I think of. Goodnight all ❤️

I'm being watched

Strange person at gym, interrupting me mid set by waving their hands in front of me: can you please guard this machine for me, I’ll be in [other area] for maybe 10 minutes in case someone takes machine.

How about you come back to the machine when you’re ready to use it?

Colleague who's also job searching told me her application for WFH insurance gig was rejected pre-interview (she has much relevant experience), and that there were 850 applicants for the role 😬😬

Hooray, I got the heater going, it's a warmer night here.

Good night everyone. 😘

Had a lovely trip to Melbourne. Weather was great. I got to see my brother and neices. We went to dinner at La Bon Ton (which was delicious, but my God can someone get place some proper lighting) then we watched the first quarter of North v Melbourne before going to see Seinfeld perform.

It was my first ever time seeing a comedian live and it was hilarious. I'm gonna have to check out some more.

Even went on a few 'dates' from those oh-so-fun dating apps. I get like zero matches back home, but flying into melbourne my phone was pinging and I was basically feeling like that Nic Cage Con-Air meme with his long, luscious hair. They both knew I lived in Tassie so it was really meeting as friends, but it was nice to talk to people again. My conversational skills have definitely improved at least.

Came back home yesterday, definitely caught something. Probably from my neices. Feeling run down and throat has a weird taste. Stuck a swab up my nose but no COVID.

Back to the grind today :(

I wfh so my brain has resorted to dreaming about bus rides in the dark through fog

I got a vintage 60s aussie made merino jumper from the op shop, checked it really carefully, it still came up with a few holes after I washed it, just tiny ones but it's annoying. It's really nice so I'll sew it up.

wondering if Thornbury has any tips or advice on shopping and care of jumpers? TYVMIA

Good morning world!(but not the guy who revs his car at 6am on my street)

Fucking Mozzies, it's supposed to be mozzie season or winter, not both. >:(

Wondering if a knockoff oodie is worth it

Existential question for Wednesday - do I turn on the heater or not? Pros/cons balance out atm.

Picked up some lamb on discount today and cooked up. I forgot how heavy lamb was and it was nice and tasty though the chips did have quite a bit of fat.

Full now though and ready to relax for the evening.

Back to work, saw the papou and most importantly the papou's next of kin.
Remember how I asked them to let them know I had the 'rona because he was showing symptoms and I was worried he had it, and he's a nonagenerian with health issues up the wazoo? "No, they never told me nothing." 🤦🏻‍♀️ Fuck's sake.
Plus to top it off he had symptoms. "Yeah I thought it was just a cold, I better test myself." Yeah mate, might be an idea.

Shoulder is sore today from overworking it yesterday, pills aren't doing much to take the edge off the pain is more pronounced today so I guess it's really just a strain or something.

I think i"m going to ice it up when i get home today.

I guess at the same time I might save my grocery shopping till the weekend as much as I'm tempted today after work.

Going to take it easier today while I'm at work and not use my left arm as much.

One of last night’s dreams involved being on a cruise ship and sharing a room with some friends. Unfortunately I missed the first two days of sailing and when I boarded, I asked the friends to show me where the room was and they had no idea. We then walked laps of the back corner of the ship looking for the room and it was no where to be found. I woke up feeling tired from hauling around my luggage! Think I’m feeling a bit of the mental load lately, which logically, I have no need to.

Sometimes I think there is crack in Pad Thai. I just cannot stop myself from eating the whole takeaway serve.

Thank you for your order

we are ready to settle currency

please pay this invoice

McAfee

I put in garbage can

Had a restless night due to pain until I got up and took a large dose of Panadol osteo at 4:30, then promptly crashed until 9. I honestly think the last time I slept that late was the night Mum has the stroke - and I only fell asleep at about 5 that time.
Also I see my streak of having no dreams while the DT has weird dreams continues.

I have developed an awful mouth ulcer just in front of the top of my lower left teeth so it stings even when I open my mouth and my teeth brush past it. To say nothing of attempts to eat anything. This is not helping my mood. Might have to bust out the salt rinse and Kenalog. I need an "off" switch for tonight so I can just start again tomorrow morning...

ugh, woke up with mild coffee withdrawals

Tried the Kmart unscented moisturiser - I had my fingers crossed but within seconds there was a faint growing sting. Guess I have to keep getting the one that does seem to be ok.

Life is a sensory nightmare 👍

I get so unmotivated in Winter when it’s already getting dark at 5pm, it just saps the life out of me. Just wanna sloth in front of tv, have dinner and go to bed.