Melbourne

Hmm, I'm noticing that feeling of rising anxiety when the sun sets. Trying not to feed it. That old fear that I haven't done enough and the day is ending and something's going to go wrong. No, no, I'm not going to succumb. I'm too old for this, dammit!

I've done some Useful Things today: made rice and dal, paid my licence renewal fee, washed and dried the blanket and sheets, and now I'm going to tidy up my tatty anxiety-brows and pack for a day of training tomorrow. That's it, I don't need to do anything else. The day's been worth it, I can sleep fine. ...and if not I have a restavit by my bedside table.

Goodnight everyone. Have a great night ❤️

The boys are having a nice Sunday arvo nap.

Rain be coming.

Feeling better than yesterday. After considering all my options, talking to various people, and actually having a look online... I'm starting to think that maybe moving will be a better option even if it means being trapped in a 1yr lease - if I stay close to work I don't need a second bedroom for effective WFH, and that opens up much more affordable options, which offsets the costs of possibly breaking my lease in June/July. It'll only ever be a short term thing anyway, and in that context... I could live with a lot less than I have now, and with no balcony (I'll have to give away my plants at some point).

Now is also probably a great time to look as uni students finish up, before the deadness of Jan and then influx in Feb.

Sad that it's come to this but holy hell the sheer stress of feeling unsafe in my own home is not worth it. My body feels better for having looked.

No steam fresh bags at the supermarket, I've had to regress to bulk flash frozen prechopped veggies. Feels like the stone age.

Heaven knows what I'd have to do if neither were available. Hardly bares thinking about.

The secret to the softness of the tum.

Been a really chill day. Actually feel ready for work tomorrow :)

Boss says I can return to work as long as I don't touch him 😆 Absolutely no problems in that regard 🤣

Movie Review time.

OSS 117. SBS. French Polar spoof. Dujardin did a really good take off of Connery. The whole movie was a superb cringe fest. "Those Villainesses just need a hobby!!'

Three wee lads of the Shire.

100 Beavers. Black and White silent movie. Comedy. Like Charlie Chaplin met Bugs Bunny in the Yukon.

3 hobbits

Piccadilly Jim. A PG Wodehouse story with Sam Rockwell as the wastrel. It was fun. The costumes and set design were terrific.

3 hobbits.

Poltergeist. the remake. Not fun. I lasted 10 minutes. I just thought the structure of the story wasn't good. It didn't start off with everyone happy and hopeful . It started off tense. No sense of peace to disturb, no loss, no learning curve. maybe could have been edited better. I dunno, I'm just a viewer.

2 hobbits.

Started re-watching Charmed. Ugh, some of S1 is just so stupid.

Edit: Context, enjoying it, but just letting total strangers in your home when they’re acting weird, so dumb.

wanted to know what temp it was in the room so I went outside to get my thermometer. The glass tube slid out the holder so I put it back in. But how far does it actually go in the holder and against the scale.

🫥

Thermometer is now completely useless to measure anything except change in temp.

We're in!

Hooray go me and my RSI from TOO MANY FUCKING BOLTS.

He's not supposed to be in the sun for very long, due to his lil pink nose, but I let him chill in it for a bit because should be able to sunbake haha

Always amazed at his beautiful colourful coat; he has orange around his elbows, that are visible here and when I move his fur around, I think it's mostly underfur that's orange.

Anyway, here's Mickey this morning

Went for walk.

Had a coffee, bought a book, bought some flowers. Life is good

So the Dr said yesterday he thinks my sore bits are Impetigo, based on what a couple of them looked like. The rest look like eczema, but he's put me on antibiotics for a week and if it doesn't respond he's sending me to a specialist who might take a biopsy. So I've been taking the pills for 1½days and have more patches of sores now ☹️

Friend was going to the market so I skipped the birdies and went with her. Lovely catch up, coffee then a walk around the park anyway. Such a nice day and realised I was badly in need of some social interaction that's not work related. Feeling peaceful

gonna touch sand

The giant Chiko roll won 🚗

Thinking it might be time for delicious tortellini

We went to a book fair and picked up some DVDs and vhs as well. I think it's time to get the boys into physical media. They can bring us wiggles DVDs to watch instead of us just going on YouTube

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I watched the Uzumaki animation yesterday and man, it starting fucking with me in the dark lol

So. I've made significant changes to the tracks for Thursday.

https://on.soundcloud.com/Xvjkx

Here's one I did last night. Pretty happy with it. So just practising where to take breaths today.

I just learned something about myself. I thought I'd never ridden on a horse but I just saw a photo of me riding one when I was a kid on my parents digital photo frame. How about that.

I knew I'd ridden on a camel and an elephant. Didn't know about the horse.

Yeah nah back to bed

Edit. That's better.

Con: fell asleep before finishing cheese plate

Pro: woke up to cheese plate

My car is back in it's rightful spot. The garage. Imma celebrate with a coffee and a load of washing. 🎉