Oh so all the time in different ways then?

Yeah that does check out actually.

Idk the list is kinda a lot rn but probably atleast half of them. Certainly irritability

"muscle tension", for most of my life i though relaxed and calm were the same thing. then covid hit and i never had to go out. all verbal communication was done via scheduled zoom and i could immediately drop my facial expression. then i finally understood what if fealt like to have my muscles relax without being high as fuck. i love that my kid has become verbal, it's great for him. but damn do i miss going days without saying or hearing a spoken word.

Like, half of those at times lol. Especially if I'm near a road, with vehicles on it. Rare, I know... >.>

I cover my eyes, inability to relax, fatigue, increased stimming, distracted and retract socially.

Social and emotional

Probably easier to list what I don't experience but I don't have an easy way to tally it on my phone and post it here in text format and it's seeming like a lot of work so brain is refusing. Nothing personal meant, it's a helpful list

What's interesting is some of these are either shutdown or meltdown symptoms for me, they aren't just plain overload