Asklemmy

To retire or change my job. If you want to get into IT, never become a sysadmin if you don't absolutely love your job. I'm overqualified and with every day I do sneaker admin stuff, I stray further from the actual prestigious software engineering job I wanted in the first place.

Just lay on my bed all day browsing the internet. I hope I could have such a life

Who are you, Lucifer? Whatever it is I want I'm not trading my soul for it, sorry.

For my first subproject to finish coming together. It's so exciting I often can't sit still and focus on it. It's a new kind of 3d modeling tool for a virtual world platform I am working on. It's the heart of the entire project and it has given off clear signs of life. It feels like holding the detonator that will blow a hole in reality and not exactly knowing what's on the other side. It has taken endless resolve to get here.

Sleep, uninterrupted sleep.

Eat something healthy.

I'd like to know what to do next. I'm at a juncture in my career - my current gig is dragging me down, and I think I kinda maneuvered myself into a disadvantageous position.

Since forever, I've been a developer, sometimes leading small teams, sometimes working in committees on data interchange formats for the industry sector. Two years ago, I had the opportunity for a position as enterprise architect in a large corporation. Truth is, I still just have theoretical knowledge of what I'm supposed to be doing and feel like I'm floundering pretty bad. And corporate life is sucking out the joy in my life - so much time spent asking around what to do to adhere to process. But on the other hand, I am doing quite well financially.

Building things gives me joy - even if it's just doing a little optimization to shave off a few milliseconds off a database request. Sitting in meetings and going over spreadsheets is not joyful. It's been so long since I've been in the zone editing code. Generally, it's been about 3 years since I've been coding. I've been considering going back, but I have no idea how to spin it in interviews - and my coding skills are dead.

Resign and start to do some wild freelancer work where almost every day is different

To finally propose to my girlfriend. Bad family circumstances have stopped that as of late, but I'd like to not worry anymore about it and just move on with my damn life...

To make something of myself. I had a decent paying job that I recently quit because I felt it was a waste of my time and skills. I'm passionate and I want to learn to grow.

To be better with my money. I have no idea why it's so hard for me to save.

To tell my friend that I love her

To be calm. I'm in a constant state of panic. I don't know what to do because the pills aren't really working... I have awfully bad anxiety.

To get a job I want.

But, right right right now, my desire is that my computer doesn't get herpes after I finish downloading this thing