CephalonC

joined 1 year ago
[–] CephalonC@lemm.ee 12 points 1 year ago

And I understand what you mean, it's just the years of sticking to grammatical rules to be "correct" when they feel so unnatural to how I actually hold conversations has had its effects on me.

Sure, in school I never got treated differently for having Autism/ADHD, but that was because it never became apparent, and my parents never believed I had either, because I was "too intelligent for that", despite the signs throughout my life, including my older sister and many of my friends being able to tell just from being around me.

And so after all that, I've started gradually opening up, and writing how I would speak, even if it's not "correct" as that learned grammar would want it to be. And so the apology is somewhat of a holding point to that grammatical formality I'm leaving behind.

Even half the periods I've typed here are still restraining myself from letting my "voice" keep going without pause, as I've gotten it into my head from those years that it's seen as "annoying" or some other negative attribute to do so.

[–] CephalonC@lemm.ee 35 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) (31 children)

Yeah, I generally agree with your stance on it, which is a little bit of a change from previously, but more so understanding better what was already there.

My main problem with their instance is the sub-group of more antagonistic and condescending users, which have an overlap with the ones posting what you've described as "Kremlin propaganda".

Although said propaganda isn't quite exclusive to Russia, there's also Chinese propaganda stuff there too from what I can understand, which again has that same sort of overlap in users, if not the same users as the Russian propaganda sources.

Also, some of the culture of the instance is a bit off-putting, namely the allusions of sorts to pigs, but that could just be my Autism causing me to feel more offended by that than normal.

As it is, politically speaking, I'm not fond of Capitalism, I'm aware of the general historical problems of authoritarianism that have taken over what attempts at communism have been tried, and so I can agree with a decent amount of the views taken there.

But the pro-Russian stuff that shows up there is absolutely wild to me; a country so actively hostile to LGBTQIA+, and yet it's getting support from people in an instance that is inclusive to that same persecuted group? The same country that doesn't even appeal to their ideals of leftism and/or communism in modern day? And the same country that blatantly commits to violations of human rights? It doesn't make any logical sense.

So to your point, it's a moderation issue mainly, and an issue that actually is being addressed, so nicely done to the admins/moderators there for that, and well done to you for bringing that to attention here as well.

And hopefully as you've said, once people start getting used to the rules and connection to other instances, said antagonism, condescension, and trolling will reduce with time.

And apologies for the absolutely flowing sentences that go on for way longer than normal, I blame the Autism/ADHD, as it's closer to how I actually speak vocally. I try to space it out so it's more readable, and less of a wall of connected language that blurs together, especially for those who might have dyslexia.

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