TokenEffort

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What do you create? in c/nostupidquestions@lemmy.world
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 1 points 5 hours ago

Worldbuilding and video games! :(

How can you raise yourself to be on the same page as society when you were neglected and locked away for 20 years? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 1 points 16 hours ago (1 children)

Think it's just you. Looked through my posts lol

How can you raise yourself to be on the same page as society when you were neglected and locked away for 20 years? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
What are you looking forward to on the Thanksgiving menu? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.world
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 1 points 1 day ago

$256 after taxes, and the next day I'll probably buy some fancy Japanese food for $40. Thanks for buying Christmas gifts and cat litter y'all 🤑🤑🤑

What is the longest you've been awake without sleep? When and why did you do it? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.world
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 5 points 1 day ago

Probably like 3 days because my high school insisted on overworking students for the black excellence and just about everyone in my life glorified sleep deprivation, starving, overwork, and abusing people into doing better because mental health is For White People. Today I'm still fighting burnout I've had since 2019, and suffering from falling down train station stairs on the third day of having no sleep. I really just wish I was born white or dead.

Oh, Ouija Spirits of Lemmy! Tell me, what's the next Lemmy trend going to be about? in c/askouija@lemmy.world
Epic Games is officially cool with the Internet Archive preserving early Unreal games in c/games@sh.itjust.works
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 6 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Is this about cs:go skins or is it something else. I don't remember valve being deceptive (Not Defending Just Asking 🙄)

How can you raise yourself to be on the same page as society when you were neglected and locked away for 20 years? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 5 points 1 day ago

Being behind everyone sucks.

Do y'all really eat breakfast at Taco Bell? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 2 points 1 day ago

The thing is that I wake up at 4PM to go to work from 6PM to 6:30AM

At 7AM I'm done for the day. I want dinner.

What are you just done with after giving it so many chances? in c/asklemmy@lemmy.ml
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 15 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Life. I tried several times to make it better and every time it "gets better" it actually gets worse than it was before. I was misdiagnosed as the blue puzzle piece and even though I literally am not that crap I'm still practically stalked by adult protective service even after changing my name and using a ups store as my "address". I never tell anyone about the MISdiagnosis because they never believe it was a mistake. Yet a lot of people still infantilize me and talk to me like I'm minutes old. These people would treat a literal preschooler like they're more mature than me. I can keep running but I can't hide from that damn puzzle piece. And honestly I'm tired of running. 🥱🔫

Everyone can like or dislike anything, but that stupid puzzle piece made me like or dislike stuff. No, lostwave is not a "special interest" it's just a thing I enjoy. I don't play video games because of that stupid puzzle piece, I play games because they're FUN. I made games for a hobby, not because that stupid fucking puzzle piece made me like programming. You don't need to talk to other people about me in front of me like I'm an animal, about why these things "make me so happy".

I hate how I'm perpetually too old AND too young for everything. Everything family friendly is age regression, and everything else is "not suitable" for me. Smash Bros and Overwatch were both, a game for little kids, and a game with too much violence. But if I don't enjoy anything anymore, that stupid puzzle piece is why, and not all the bullshit I got from literally everyone in my life.

I give up on life because I'm sick and tired of living as a puppet controlled by a disorder I don't even have. I'm tired of fighting to be human. I'm done.

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How can you raise yourself to be on the same page as society when you were neglected and locked away for 20 years? (sh.itjust.works)
 

Is that possible or am I just SOL for never being raised

Leak: Valve is making a Steam Controller 2 and a ‘Roy’ for its Deckard in c/games@sh.itjust.works
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)

Who TF is thinking about fire emblem roy lmfao, or should I say roy from Smash since binding blade is so irrelevant

I hate how every possible facial expression a black woman can make is mistook for aggression and "attitude" in c/goodoffmychest@lemmy.world
[–] TokenEffort@sh.itjust.works 7 points 2 days ago

I'm surprised I didn't get immediately permabanned for this post like I would have on reddit.

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I hate how every possible facial expression a black woman can make is mistook for aggression and "attitude" (sh.itjust.works)
 

Straight face only means I want to fight. Any kind of smiling is passive aggressive. Looking sad means I want to fight. And of course looking angry means I'm angry with you and specifically you and nothing else. The only way to Fix My Face is to just hide it entirely.

I really hate my ugly ass face for all other reasons, but being unable to order food in person without a cashier thinking I'm angry and willing to fight over the pettiest thing possible is the last straw.

I can't wait until I don't need to work anymore and I can just shut myself away from society and be a white vtuber or something. If I really want fast food then I'll do no contact delivery so the deliverer doesn't assume I'm angry at them for literally doing their job.

Can't even apologize for bumping into someone without them assuming I'm angry that they're in my very important way. Whoops, sorry, excuse me, doesn't matter what I said, it's passive aggressive and I want to fight.

Can't say anything is fine or okay, can't thank anyone, can't wish them a nice day, can't greet them, can't say anything without it being taken aggressively. And not saying anything at all is silent treatment, or passive aggression.

Can't thank anyone for a gift. Every holiday, I was "ungrateful" for everything. My smile was fake and the thank you was sarcastic. I hate holidays, birthdays, and gifts for that reason.

So many black women glorify this as "culture". I might as well be the only black woman who isn't petty, passive aggressive, or overly willing to fight someone. I really wish I had just died at birth since clearly something is wrong with me.

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Do y'all really eat breakfast at Taco Bell? (sh.itjust.works)
 

Just asking. Not angry that I can't get dinner at 6AM after a 12 hour shift at Amazon or anything. Juuuuuust asking.

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What are some self care things you've learned much later in life? (sh.itjust.works)
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What media has your favorite worldbuilding? (sh.itjust.works)
 

Personally I'm really obsessed with the lore in Fire Emblem: Three Houses

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What are ways to end a web surfing addiction? (sh.itjust.works)
 

That's what we call it still right, I'm not old, right? Anyway I'm horribly addicted to ragebait on reddit and despite being permabanned sitewide (can't even make new accounts) I still keep going back to it. It's obviously depressing and angering. It's not fun!

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What are the cutest unique or unconventional ways of expressing love? (sh.itjust.works)
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EMERGENCY ALERT! ________ INBOUND TO WYOMING. TAKE IMMEDIATE SHELTER. THIS IS NOT A DRILL. (sh.itjust.works)
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Sakurai just quietly added one more character to Smash Bros Ultimate, surprising players worldwide. Right now, you can download ________ for $35.33! (sh.itjust.works)
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What causes random bouts of almost tears and increased skittishness? (sh.itjust.works)
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It's 8AM?! You're telling me I spent over 17 hours __________? (sh.itjust.works)
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What seemingly random thing do you vehemently hate? (sh.itjust.works)
 

I hate people who wear cold weather gear in warm/heated places

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