banana_meccanica

I do, but I don't think so.

Well actually agree with this upopular opinion. Maybe because I am old school, I remember youtube was just something random, videos made by casual who don't really pretending to become "ultra-rich-content-creator-influencers". Now its all about monetize every single bit.

Sadly most of people (lovers, bots, scammers) dealing the same way IRL. Its all about what you have to offert (aka money).

Honestly I don't know, I give up on life time ago, then this last year I start "living" again by having a daily activies and job. But I deal with this like someone dead inside, I don't feel any joy. I am not even looking for a goal. I see nothing in other people, I interact with then know that i get forget as soon the day end. I am just too scared to kill myself.

You are insane if you believe that the story would be same without Fiona as Ogre. Shrek is unique and in this fantasy cartoon he finds easly: 1.A job 2. Friends 3. another unique female perfect fit for him. In real life the guy who lives in trash will easily die alone in a routine of meanless with hardly half of this listed things.

Shrek change his life not because his will. He was forced to leave his swamp and then lucky he found the mostly friendly creatures, plus the only lady around that knows what is to be an ogre. So what we talking about?

You can be positive at end because you have save something with your work. I have your age, never work a single day of my life, I don't have a bank account, I'm just living with my 70yo parent and keep going with his money that is the wage of essential worker. Where I am going? Enjoy what? What ride? I only see that probably I have to work like a slave in future, and that's it.

I'm glad to finally read someone that's say something real. Its all about lying, yes I educate myself and I even try to fake a fair enough resumee. I realize this is the only way to hope for something. I don't have special abilities, not good at math, coding boring me. I try a lot of thing in this life, I am in a training program now, but things move slowly, I'm 35, I should have a wife by now, an happy place called home, but looks so far away, looks even that I lost the train to having that life. Feeling already old even if I do nothing, life ask things I dont have. Stupid things like a car, I don't want it, I don't like it, but people want me to have it. This example apply to everything. In order to have something I wish for I need to want something I don't like, that's so stupid and I feel bad.

Still everything is now ashes, dust in the wind, nothing. All this fun hobbies are now only a meanless memory, I didn't have nothing back, all the fun you say is become, for me, hate. Hate to have wasted my time laughing like a fool behind videogames, books, even sports, telling myself that was okay, creating a big lie that hobby was something important, just to see it ending without any result. So that's the point, limited time sure it's everything, but meaning is also everything in this life.

Tree with intelligence? I don't see any reason why this trees accepts to be buildings, there will be no benefit from them to having us around.

I didn't find any good enough hobby in this 35 years of life that didn't fade after some time. At moment I'm very empty inside, I spend half day sleeping and other half working, everything looks expansive to do, I give up on everything, I'm keeping myself alive because I'm just scared of the pain and I can't imagine stop existing.