beumuth

joined 6 months ago
[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 1 points 2 hours ago

Yes. I think it's gaslighting. I'm often forced to engage with gaslighting.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 1 points 2 days ago (1 children)

I'm talking about nutriment for intention, cetanā āhāra. Forgive me, there was two Āhāra Suttas, and I accidentally linked the incorrect one.

 

This happens in conversations, where people are unsure if I have basic ability to read. I read fairly regularly throughout my life, and believe I'm able to. Is there a way to test & demonstrate whether I'm actually capable of reading, or if I'm e.g. reading without realizing that I'm not actually comprehending it?

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 1 points 2 days ago

It can even be a prayer method. Finding access to intention-nutriment has been a recurring issue, and I've prayed for help for it before though. So I'm wondering if there's better methods.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 1 points 2 days ago (3 children)

I'm having difficulty with getting intention nutriment (cetanā-āhāra), and don't know how to go about requesting help.

 

Hello. I'm having difficulty obtaining nutriment for intention, and feel a sense of starvation-pain there. I learned in Buddhism about this concept from the Āhāra Sutta [edit - mistakenly linked the wrong Āhāra Sutta], that nutriment for intention is necessary to sustain beings. Intention nutriment is also regarded as impermanent, conditioned phenomena that's better to be detached from, though I don't know how to obtain enlightenment and become detached from nutriment either. Is there a way to request & gain access to nutriment for intention within Buddhism? I've been unsuccessful in getting responses when asking like this in the past. Otherwise, is there a way I could gain enlightenment and become detached from nutriment? (I've been reading suttas/sutras from Theravāda & Mahāyāna over the past decade.)

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 1 points 4 days ago* (last edited 4 days ago)

I received another couple assaults today with a lengthy session of being screamed at for an hour, by the same person. They assaulted me and bit my finger, drawing a small amount of blood; took my laptop & threw it on the ground.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world -1 points 1 week ago

As a Buddhist, I take refuge in the āryasaṅgha, which includes doctors. Medical care can be corrupted, and my karma can be too risky to approach an ordinary honest doctor.

 

They name it magician
To navigate beyond platonic existence

Like a Pokemon I got to evolve
Beyond these trials & involvements

They try to box you in when
Mind is actually cyclic

They try to box you in when
Mind is actually cyclic

 

There are many elegant swans, ducks, & geese that sail through the waters as they make their enchanting calls of exuberant passion.

―The Buddha, Saddharma­smṛtyupasthāna (4.C.429)

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submitted 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) by beumuth@lemmy.world to c/justpost@lemmy.world
 

My life-partner became violent toward me last month and forced me out of the apartment. I didn't have shoes on, and was walking to a Buddhist center to try taking refuge. I was arrested while walking, then detained for around three weeks after refusing to say more than my name and date of birth to the police. I'm begging for better living & food options.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world -1 points 2 months ago

Here are some reasons:
-Communication
-Intellectual/sound/joy/etc. nutriment
-Generosity/merit
-Play, work
-Practicing language
-Huēhuecoyōtl devotion
-Compressing/decorating information
-Bodhisattva activities

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world -1 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

Later that day, in rage, the person stomped on me while I was laying down, struck me in the head again, was damaging to property, was trying to bite me, and was attempting to burn me with a lighter.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world -1 points 2 months ago (1 children)

This person punched me in the head again this morning in anger.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world -1 points 2 months ago (2 children)

The past few days, this person has been volatile with delirious violence. This includes hours-long sessions of him refusing to leave my personal space with abusive speech & occasional violence. He's swung at my head with a fist a couple times and missed, and also struck me in the back of the head. I don't engage with the angry speech; am intolerant of & displeased by this molestation.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 0 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) (2 children)

Sometimes Coyote gives me a sound (via manovijñāna), then has me find the word/phrase that matches the sound - I think this is what's happening.

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[OC] re-zlyx-ation (lemmy.world)
submitted 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) by beumuth@lemmy.world to c/poetry@lemmy.world
 

I work on it, work on it -
My body's got myofascial glass,
have to break it open like a glowstick.

It's gross the bodily fluid storage;
I want to fast-forward it.
The apartment is made for someone
a foot or so shorter;
repetitive strain, unergonomic.

By complaining with poems about it over & over
Maybe the amalgamation of verse will
motivate some vergence.

Like a table outside for online orders
& less bending over -
Some day we may afford it -
Though I rather wish to obsolete
all the required grating labor, it's within reach.

[–] beumuth@lemmy.world 0 points 3 months ago (3 children)

Thank you for apologizing.

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submitted 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) by beumuth@lemmy.world to c/buddhism@lemmy.world
 

I wrote a post (here) a couple weeks ago that was removed for being nonsensical. The message was true, factual, canonical & directly quoted, and written in plain language. I think moderators have overstepped bounds in censoring it as nonsensical. Is there a way to dispute the action?

 

Bhith, you got a new exhibit

Lift off what you inhibit

Porridge for the winded

Forage for the zigzs

Hitbox,perfume smidges

Squidgen the digits

Dindles in the lidden

Pintles in pivot

Scintilla the ditches

Piatus religious

Hiatus rescinded

Refinéd hūdgeot

Beoludwig

Coyatydidit

Moeity widget

Poety frugiv

Laity fruited

Toity frūctʌm

Loitery herbatus

Boiterie sroiglid

Donderdagsmorgens

Noitada morta

Federico del Sagrado Corazón de Jesús García Lorca

Popcorn ceiling

th-sazón

[Arrows motif]

Remedi-di, remedios Mojave!

Sabji w/ gatte on Greasy Rockies - didja spot me?

Bayou dockies

Friar lockhee

Tires tubefree

Stire Dumfries

Choir musey

Saran oozie

Pyre shood'wy

Basketry leaves

Pheidole deniz-

Petroleum street

Linoleum frieze

Bitcoin meep

Friction teak

Speak

Kweak

Mario tjeemp

Tārā green

Lakizublie

Troporeef

Trichoconyt

PikoG

Free throw ly

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submitted 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) by beumuth@lemmy.world to c/justpost@lemmy.world
 

When I was in middle school, I was sexually molested by some adults in my family. I've also received death threats & further assaults from one of these people, which police have supported & contributed to more than once.

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[OC] Ascetic (lemmy.world)
submitted 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) by beumuth@lemmy.world to c/poetry@lemmy.world
 

They trhine2 strand us back in a stone age -
The flow's strickt tho, nomenclad pronase.
Row over seas lykai mosaic.
Rest in peace, e'ry1 who sank it.

Qway, the Buddha teleported the Ganges
Whereafter Gotama Gate was kristna'd
Qua a glass bridge to see one through.

Today, I abstain meat; I'm on flow sage.

 

My face looks more stressed than Guru Rinpoches' in the mirror
and I smiley say may no one make statues of me.

My life-partner's patience wears thin it's a pāramī please forgive him
for having assaulted me & being cruely.

I wouldn't wish the work of cleaning the dishwasher in the kithchen on my
worse enemy, there's standing water there approaching seven seasons going
since our move-in.

The conditions are totalitarian so these polar flips,
& I'm close to doing first ever full split soon,
been yogi thru all of it,
neo 2 kenobi–ish anāgāmin.

There is no known stress Buddhamind can't conform to
(except maybe Coyote's, idk yet).

 

I'd take my hands tho over the Enterprise.
They dawdle into mudras untelevised.

A Crystal Geyser squish, per'squisite lerpous.
Sometimes, they're charred by a terp itch.

Only V6, tho I whanto improve it.

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