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does anything that fixes/manages muscle tensions n pains from tension!?!??!?!?!? which im doenst know? im dying aaaaaaaaaaaaa (incl face!!!! its hell!!)

meds are sux.........

edit: forget mention, i was at neurologist, there no rly medical treatment options available, thu govr very toxic to some type

i think is pretty yummy for dumb ELISA lab(inaccurate at low concentrations) method and progesterone

edit: its 14.37 ng/dL(fck units)

how to actually possible archive """stable""" levels, sublingual pills? idk they more expensive, i hate estrogel pump dosator, some bottles are worse, and fck eyeballing is worst........., does by eyeballing, less than 0.75 one pump is okay? idk

if i had high enough levels on one pump morning, up to next morning, fck kill those who put hormones into pump dosators, okay but one pump morning was insane spikes and it didnt give me good suppression and i got lg like 2.20, despire being on prog i dont wanna risk more so eyeballing half-pumps better

dumb nurse didnt put effort to find vein in my right hand, but instead took from left where i apply estrogel(yeah is faking result too)
also me dumbass, saved money for fact-check SHBG

fckkkk the estradiol is faked probably in my new bloodwork, but lh is zero, t is 0.9 nmol

nyaaaa i got this morning girl juice n skittes too!! mrprpprpprp

upd, the result of cable management here:

the complete setup:

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idk i have tmj pains it can go to whole fcking head, masseters muscles sux i had strong masseters in past, hopefully they athropy now, some time ago i had bruxism too(but hopefully dont touching the teeth so they okay), in my body muscle tension episodes the lower jaw wanting to go front, i have part of jaw bone a ton in ear canal

i had orthodentist appointment, they confirmed that masseters are spasmed, tmj sux, and put with (?) jaw skeletal class 3, teeth placement is correct, since i take ~~shitraline~~ sertraline, we suspecting like bruxism is side effect right?,

orthodentist recommended try muscle relaxants, but they sux lol, i have overall muscle problems so yeah, said to my dumb psychiatrist, then he prescribed tolperisone which are east european underresearched yeah, okay i tried it, but got sick from first pill, so doesnt taken more, i tried tizanidine by myself, it was really cool, but tolerance developer very very fast in few days

also idk they recommended weird gnathologist which we didnt even have in our city, and it like dumb soviet physiotherapy procedures which cost money

maybe try botulinium toxin into masseters(and whole face yeah because i have problems w it), but price is sux, availbility sux

NSAIDs actually help with tmj pains, like ketoprofen pill, but i dont wanna ruin my stomach from it, but local gels/creams smell as hell (they all have weird aromotizers in it), last days didnt take it and just feel okay

idk mine dysphoria not very much, is WEIRD!!, whole life i just wanna smaller pp (hope it will athropy) and its still like that

however still like idea of having clit, and now on prog: vajaja(again weird way)

dysphoria focused on balls, which i gonna cut next year, orchi would be very very very awesome

for bottom surgery, awwtisticly, i dont like idea of traveling another part of world(!!), that i need pay for this massive amount of money, i cant get good surgeoun except thai/serbian creeps, i feel uncomfortable by idea of being open, cut, blood, put in deep anesthesia shutdown, in any way, dont feel confortable getting surgery by not queer itself and which doesnt experienced this on themself, i feel dangerous what if i get damaged massive nerve and got put on strong meds forever(especially for them i need leave my asshole, either nevet get even neuropathic pain treatment, even just gabapentin, i will probably get prisoned for lgbt, trans laws/or psych ward if try get prescribtion, and worse 228 for transferring strong substances from another country), and correction is cost money too!!

if i relocate to another country, i probably wont get it covered as evil evil IMMIGRANT, and/or limited amount of surgeouns by incourage, and as person which doesnt wanna gain money for local billionaires at hard job

on prog my dysphoria episode shutdown, i actually "waow pp is cute", and anyway on hrt its not testosterone awful aaaaaa, actually "wa if vajaja" however pp is not annoying and feels cute except balls hehe, idk i started like my genitalia

in orchi way - there a absolutly simple surgery, with local anesthesia, affordable, close to me, and woke women surgeoun which ignores trans ban laws, and young girl friendly (not truscum like others), however other surgeouns are false-friendly, and forget about trans existence after law

seems like not worth it, and money worth put in hormones(which actually controls dysphoria), orchi, cute stuff long-term, relocation for cute catgirl antidepressants heheheh mrpmrprmr memwopow :3 even internet girls destroyed mine dysphoria/brainworms, then what its in irl mrpmrpmr moemwomeowmeom :33333, lesbians uwuwuaauwuu :33

currently do 200mg rectally at morning, howerver ppl usually say do it at night, but is pretty hard to fit my routine

but i think is related to sedation on oral prog, due first-pass liver metabolism, and (allo)pregnanolone neurosteroids explouse(also this why some reports weird dreams on prog)
actually it doesnt produce sedation for me