Whaaat? I was so hyped by the prospect of buying liters of overpriced ice cream

I guess I'm going to eat a lot of ice cream this month

Funny, I was thinking this person is actually slightly too interesting for this community. I may need to see a doctor.

Is Lemmy and this online double life you escape to the way you normally cope? Do you see someone in real life about those feelings?

I hope they leave you alone soon.

Hey,

So I feel down. I've been feeling bad for 3 weeks now, despite the meds.

It all started with a woman with whom I shared this very quick, powerful attachment, which suddenly turned around into... Something else ; I'm not sure what yet, but in any case I fucked it up.

Along the way (and thanks to her) I've ended up realizing a bunch of messed up stuff about myself, and I'm now questioning basically everything about my life, including some of my closest friends, who I truly am under all the layers of bits I took from them... And now I'm confused, ashamed at my confusion, ashamed in general, feeling guilty about that messed up stuff, and pretty lonely.

I need to work on all that, but I keep procrastinating the emotional work it requires. Or maybe I'm just impatient ; I have started some stuff : I'm in the process of switching therapists for example. But the mood is still most of the way down.