I get that it's probably a bad idea I just desperately need this and I'm not ready to have that talk with my parents

it's just that I'm not ready to have that conversation with my parents yet but I need to medically transition as soon as possible. thank you for the resource

I'm kind of out to my parents they know that I go by a different name and I've only told them that I'm nonbinary. they seem to be supportive of my sister who's lesbian as well. I don't know if I can deal with being forced through more therapy to get hrt because my mental health has been in the gutter for the past 3 years and I would preferably not have to "prove" to a cis person that I have severe gender dysphoria

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Personally I just skip the vps. I use my old HP laptop running fedora as my server (with cloudflared to expose my jellyfin and nextcloud because I live in a dorm and can't port forward)

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Any idea how I could find some trans communities irl? I live in a city but I don't know how to look for those types of groups and this is sort of the first time I've gone and actually not lurked and said something on a specifically trans community

What resources would you recommend specifically for figuring out how to get hrt? I am more willing to take the steps after learning how important it is but I still am unsure especially because as far as I know unless you do diy which is risky you have to go through the medical system which takes really long and also has diagnosis and also that migjt not be a great idea to me bc of current politics

Thank you for the info. I originally thought that the body changing stuff just ended once you become an adult kind of like puberty and knowing that is really helpful. For the mental stuff I already have the first 3 and some other issues but I really don't want night terrors if that's a common issue so I'll try to do it soon. Also I have already read the dysphoria bible and I reread specific sections when I have imposter syndrome to reassure me but thank you anyway <3

What exactly are the consequences? Also like there's still a lot of imposter syndrome because I havent done any social transitioning besides name and gender neutral pronouns which makes me really unsure if I want to do hrt

Im ngl I know for a fact my parents arent homophobic because my.sister is lesbian it's just that I don't want to deal with explaining to them that I'm on hrt and I feel like I would need bc they're still paying for my insurance

Thank you so much I really appreciate the advice <3