Hey depressed folks!

I have been diagnosed with depression about eight years ago, I'm in my third depressive episode that lasted about two years now. I'm in therapy since the start and medicated on four different drugs. The main thing I'm struggling with is the inability to do anything without forcing myself to do it, it feels like I'm stuck on manual. Getting up in the morning, making breakfast, taking care of my son, going for a walk, working, even hobbies. Gaming seems to be the only thing that lets me turn off my brain, with some pangs of "I'm wasting my time" echoing in my head. I've also been stuck overweight for a few years now, I can't control my appetite, I've tried everything between intermittent fasting and working with a dietetician and a personal trainer.

With all this I have to say my life isn't a struggle, I have a loving wife, a beautiful son, I'm earning enough to support my family, I live in a nice apartment, I've got pretty much everything I need. And yet it's all meaningless in the face of The Depression^TM^.

I don't really know why I'm writing this down, I don't expect anyone to come up with a solution here. I guess you can just join me in complaining about being a prisoner of your own mind.

All the best, Cheery