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I'm really sorry everyone...this is all my own damn fault, I'm not denying that in the slightest.

spoilerI was planning to die today. But I guess I'm not even capable of doing that.
This is all because I'm such an overdramatic, pathetic loser, an excuse for a human being. After an appointment with a new psychiatrist where her first question was "What is your deadname?" and after she told me I "started HRT late", I just fell into a deeper spiral. Now there's uncertainty if I'll even be able to go to Thailand for SRS, which made me full on suicidal upon finding out, so I just kinda...broke.
And there's the constant regret of not starting sooner, constant self-deprecating and loathing from feeling like I'll never be a woman. Hating my face and body every single waking second.
I'm just...depressed and not doing well right now. And I'm making it everybody's problem.

I'm sorry, but I guess I'm sticking around. I'm not dead just yet. I'm making a new account and starting over. But...at least, maybe you'll believe me now that I'm not actually a good person?
I'm really sorry. I'm actually the worst. I know that.

Maybe I should have died. Maybe. But...instead I guess I'll bother you all some more, again, from zero.
I'm sorry for being such an unimaginable fuckup...

Sincerely,
a very depressed trans girl,
Miisha

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[-] McUberStein@lemmy.zip 9 points 1 week ago

I don't deserve words as kind as those. And definitely not beautiful, you'll see once I start posting pics on my new account 😂
Thank you ❤️

[-] Burn_The_Right@lemmy.today 2 points 6 days ago

You don't know what any individual sees as beautiful. My tastes are mine, thank you very much, and I am unique goddammit!

Seriously, most people are hyper critical of how they look. Most folks hate the way they look in photos and how they sound in recordings. This isn't a trans thing. This is a human thing. The trans part of this just amplifies that feeling sometimes. So, recognize that and accept that some people will love you and find you beautiful exactly as you are, no matter where you are on this trip.

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