hugs

Holiday with my ex was the worst most awkward time.

we rented an airbnb with the young Seagoons at a place near lorne

I did not want share a room and didn't

but I basically never went on holiday for a very long time and part of the reason was because holidays are a special time and i didn't want any special times

re emotional availability, I had to look that up, had no clue what that meant. I think it is in a lot of ways pop psych speak and can mean anything or nothing. It can also be a vague way to attribute blame. Unless someone recounts real actions I'm going to say it's a pretty useless thing to say other than as a statement of how someone feels about communication

So it's a tricky one. My ex didn't say much and I don't think I would have liked it if he did, there was nothing there but distrust and malice from the get go , but I might have run much much earlier if he did.

me, i stopped sharing with him when what I would share became points for him to abuse and mock. So not sharing was not a bad thing on my part. But as rule I was still open and kind to him.