Yeah. That’s depression. It doesn’t care about that. Brain chemistry is tricky.

I'm beginning to think you're a targeted advertising bot for my internal thoughts...

Because loneliness, misery, and despair are actual mental illness.
They are malevolutions of a behavioral coerced group mammal.

This but I have distant friends at best

Contentment and peace arise ultimately from within,

Where external factors can only attempt to penetrate.

It is why many use alchemy to help order ourselves aright,

That we may see clearly the good we have,

And to love and cherish each other and every day.