mickus

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being a femboy wasn't enough (sh.itjust.works)
 

Hello! I just wanted to rant to the void of the internet so here is the wall of text.

For a while, I had thought myself as a femboy/feminine man. Initially, i thought while looking at other men, that my conception of being a man was just different, albeit substanitally from the norm.

Fair enough I thought, I can do what I want. Wear skirts, thigh highs, make up, dresses, all of that shit. That, for a time made me happy. I finally believed that I could be thought of as pretty, not as some blank blob. Feminity brought me a comfort in my skin and oneness with my body I didn't think possible. It was a comfort that masculinity never bothered to give me.

Since my egg cracked, as I look into a mirror for too long, or look at a picture of myself, the physical realities of being a man become overwhelming. There is no skirt, no dress, no makeup that can hide this reality anymore.

It is as if throughout my life, I have purposefully turned a blind eye to it. Every time I saw the man looking at me through the mirror I moved on before it hurt any further. The truth is I hate the idea of being a man. The social aspect, the mental and undoubtly the physical. I wish it weren't so.

I hope this HRT shit works for me. I hope when all is said and done I actually feel better about it all.

Anyway, time for me to sleep. If you've read through all this, thanks

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Lilith in c/transmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 12 points 3 months ago (2 children)

I was thinking of changing my name to lilly which is closeish

The paradox of electoralism in c/flippanarchy@lemmy.dbzer0.com
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 1 points 4 months ago

I don't think there is a system that is fully stupid resistant. Some are more stupid resistant than others, but it isn't a coincidence that the more democratic a country is, the "smarter" it is.

For example, Russia invading Ukraine, very stupid idea. Or consider that the more authortarian/undemocratic america has become the more it is unreasonable/psychotic.

An exception to this would be china imo.

type shit in c/lemmyshitpost@lemmy.world
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 5 points 4 months ago (1 children)

You are meant to wash under the foreskin obviously but only with water. Soap is generally considered too harsh for that area

Trump promised mass pardons for his top aides before he leaves office: report in c/news@lemmings.world
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 3 points 4 months ago

Pardons dont apply to the hague

Pythagoras in c/mathmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 11 points 4 months ago

Well according to oxford 3rd century is the earliest known mention (reference found in India. This is well after Pythagoras' life (approx 500BC, ref)

And finally, zero arrived in the 13th centruy for the west: reference

Anyone else struggle with maths? in c/autism@lemmy.world
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 2 points 4 months ago

I struggle with arithmetic. Generally i do think this is a case of just not using it, thanks to calculators

wigs in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 1 points 4 months ago (1 children)

Hmm the sweat could definitely be a major issue. I'm in australia and can get very hot.

It does sound good to be able to change my hair colour like Ramona without actually dying it lol.

Welp I've decided I will play around with them and see how it goes

wigs in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 3 points 4 months ago

Specifically talking about my cosplay wig. It looks obviously fake. Still debating how much I would care.

Those wigs on the vids look good! I'll have a look. Thanks

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wigs (sh.itjust.works)
 

Hi!

I was wondering about experiences with wigs? Specifically wearing them out and about.

Unfortuntely my hair is just terrible. Oiley as hell, and now I am balding to my horror lol. So wigs it is.

I have a cosplay type wig. Fantastic for reducing dysphoria and getting that euphoric feeling but its just impratical to wear on the train for example.

Anyone had success with them? Do synethic wigs work well or should I be looking for really high quality ones?

College core: you sit in the class for attendance then go home and teach yourself in c/lemmyshitpost@lemmy.world
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 2 points 4 months ago

At my uni lectures were recorded / livestreamed. I honestly dont think i went to one for my whole degree

had the appointment ๐Ÿณ in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 2 points 4 months ago

I thought so! Maybe i should have asked about it. I'll do it in next apoointment coming up. Thanks for the info!

had the appointment ๐Ÿณ in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 8 points 4 months ago (1 children)

I like whales

had the appointment ๐Ÿณ in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[โ€“] mickus@sh.itjust.works 4 points 4 months ago

Yeah definitely is

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had the appointment ๐Ÿณ (sh.itjust.works)
 

Went well! Felt validated and glad I didn't have to fight to justify my identity.

The GP is currently in the process of contacting the clinics to check on the waitlist for public. Hope it isn't too long, but not getting my hopes up๐Ÿ˜”

Anyway, thats it

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gonna transition (sh.itjust.works)
 

Made the doctor appointment for next week. Wish me luck ๐Ÿณ

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