(This is a story originally from my Reddit account, posted almost a month ago. But along with my Reddit account, this post got deleted, so I though I'd find it on the Wayback Machine and post it on Lemmy instead. I found it really funny and wanted to keep it around)
About a week ago, I went out drinking with a couple of my friends. I enjoyed myself a lot, but I got really, really drunk lol. E has totally decreased my tolerance for alcohol and I rarely drink anyway.
When I stumbled back home (almost crawling on all fours at that point), my bf was very understanding. He helped me get undressed, inserted my prog for me and made sure I got to bed safely. Then I fell asleep.
I don't know why, but alcohol initially makes me fall asleep really easily, but then I always wake up a couple of hours later, not very well rested. So while I did fall asleep quite quickly, I didn't stay asleep for more than 5 hours.
I kinda woke up at about 3AM (my guess), totally out of it and confused. I did not open my eyes yet though. There was a lingering smell of wine in my nostrils, which was quite unpleasant, but I was fine otherwise, just really confused. I was trying to remember who I was or where I was, with my eyes still closed, and I kinda started rubbing my face against the pillow I was sleeping on.
It was really soft and smelled really, really good. Like that kind of smell that a girl's hair would have, nicely taken care of with various hair care products. This kind of worried me, because my brain was like: "This is a girl's pillow. What the hell did you do last night? Who am I going to wake up next to? I'm totally gonna wake up next to a girl that I don't know in the morning. And I don't even like girls!". I grew increasingly panicked, but I couldn't get enough of the scent, lol.
So I finally opened my eyes. My bf was sleeping next to me, in our own bed and I was laying on my own damn pillow 🤣. I felt so stupid, but also pretty damn euphoric. It smelled soooo good! I guess HRT made my hair much less oily, so the only thing I could smell from my pillow was my shampoo and conditioner. It definitely gave me a confidence boost.
The next morning I woke up, after a not-so-restful night with a really bad hangover and felt like shit. But I had my euphoria and was at least really happy 🩷
I don't know maybe I'll make a post at some point. But... I might have asked for more progesterone up from 100mg to 200mg because of your posting.
And oh... I might have wanted some things like having my gf to put a baby in me too... I don't know if it's placebo effect because I wanted it to happen... (She isn't cisand no surgery yet)
Today my body shiver and tremble under her touch or dom play. (I have a tendancy to be able to switch now and sometimes want to). I've never felt this bestial. Like an animal in heat. It's weird I've never been this way before. Just something like feeling her breath on my neck, anything small thing that my mind could link to sex. My body reacts instantly.
Sertraline might have awaken something sadly. I might be bipolar and it affected my libido when I'm in a "high" moment. 💜 I feel slightly more uninhibited but not really in a way that I can't think to consequences. I'll see not sure this is it, especially without a diagnosis.
Well I will stop Sertraline my GP told me to stop so at least my breast will be sensitive again. ฅ^>⩊<^ ฅ