Girl, don't delete the damned account! (Oh, nvrmnd, too late. But at least you replaced it with Miisha). We're just getting to know you! And you are loveable as fuck. You are being yourself and sharing the real you. It's amazing and wonderful. Don't toss that aside. The world needs that in it. We need you in it.
Your apologies are to no one, because they aren't needed by anyone. We just want you to stay here and become the woman you don't realize you can be. There are countless stories of trans women becoming the women they want to be after years of being sure they could never achieve that. That's a thing. You are in it and you will have that story to help others with when you become the woman you want to be. You just don't believe it yet, and that's the most important part of the story. So good. I'm glad you don't believe it yet. That will make your story even more helpful to the people who need to hear it in the future.
Stay here and be amazing. Right now that just means being your authentic self. You need to be nice to yourself, and give yourself time and space to grow. It was tough growing up once. Now you get to do it again, so let's actually make it fun this time. It's possible. I promise.
Also, get a new therapist. This one sounds dumb as fuck. I just want to sit around and talk shit about them with future you.
The world is filled with terrible people. You ain't one of 'em. Your existence dilutes the asshole ratio and therefore improves the lives of everyone around you. Depression makes that very hard to see. Let's address this depression by finding the right therapist. You might have to go to a dozen of them to find the perfect one for you. But that will be the most important shopping you ever do in your life. Totally worth it!
Ok, now take two shrooms and call me in the morning.