Djfok43

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[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 18 minutes ago

Disconnect between me and others? As I said others like him too so there's no disconnect there

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 20 minutes ago

Tbh I really liked Norway and Denmark but they're outside of my budget rn unless I want to camp out the whole time in Norway. Portugal it is

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 22 minutes ago

What do you mean "a man like that"? I'm sure most men think it, he's the only one that was honest about it

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 22 minutes ago

He was just being honest and he didn't say it to hurt me he just told me how he was feeling

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 39 minutes ago

It was not on /b/

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 2 hours ago

From what you've seen, do you think people are happier in certain parts of the world?

Even if they're interested in the same things that doesn't help me become friends with them if their outlook on everything else is completely different. They are also super racist. They think "English speakers" are like a different breed or something, and I know this because I understand both languages and they tend to talk crap after every interaction with an "English speaker" aka foreigner aka anyone that didn't grow up here.

It's even worse for me because I'm technically "from" the country but I can't hide it because of my name. So everyone hates me even more than an "English speaker" because they view me as a traitor who left the country and I can't even speak their language without an accent, the horror. If it weren't for my name I would just pretend I only speak English and my life would be way easier this way.

Literally every single time I've spoken to someone that grew up here for more than 1 second (ordering a sandwich) one of the first things they talk about is how much they hate America and how much better everything here in this country is (hint: they have no idea what they're missing cause they've never left the country). They also always comment on my accent and how much I "suck" at the language because I've literally never had to use it but am still able to speak it so sometimes it takes me a second or two to remember a word I never use. Then they tell me I will never be accepted into society or get a job here unless I take language lessons.

At this point I just want to leave this awful country where everyone treats me like garbage. The language isn't worth perfecting or learning for me and I have zero desire to live here. The only jobs that pay any living wage are in IT, and I still wouldn't want to have my colleagues be.. the way that they are.

As for volunteering, the hospitals look like actual abandoned backalley nightmarefuel depictions. There nowhere else to volunteer cause we don't have social services.

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 2 hours ago* (last edited 2 hours ago)

banned 4 Naruto

Rood

banned for buying a pass

also rood

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 3 points 2 hours ago

Tbh, I think I had to be banned to stop using it. So maybe it's a good thing, and I can lie to myself and pretend the moderators really care about me and want me to be happy and that's why they banned me ^.^

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 2 hours ago

Tbh his self esteem was quite low often, but it also fluctuated with periods of thinking he is godlike. I didn't personally find it taxing to deal with his insecurities. I was just bewildered at how much he hated himself and thought he was unworthy of love while simultaneously running away from the one girl who loved him. Kind of funny. Ha ha.

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 2 points 3 hours ago (2 children)

I guess my point was, I'm assuming you live in the US if you think there's a lot of good in people

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 3 hours ago

Okay well that makes a lot more sense for someone that has to pay quarterly I guess. I guess this is a US thing. Luckily I never had to do my own taxes in Canada and looks like I'm never going to have to learn, but I'm interested in US accountingd

[–] Djfok43@lemmy.world 1 points 3 hours ago

I don't know who we is but I certainly don't

 

The most notable of which being "The 4chan moderation team reserves the right to revoke access and remove content for any reason without notice."

I noticed something fishy starting a few weeks ago. I kept getting 3 day bans, but with no reason listed and/or no link to the offending post.

So basically I was being banned because the mods wanted to ban me. This turned into a permanent ban, I presume because of the updated rules that I wasn't aware of.

You are not allowed to DISCUSS anything that violates US law. I was banned for mentioning that I was worried my neighbours are abusing their kid.

Permanently banned from 4Chan for this. I tried to appeal it but it was rejected.

Always saw 4Chan as a freedom of speech platform but looks like things are changing very quickly.

 

To put a lot story short I'm stuck in Bulgaria for the foreseeable future for a multitude of (interesting) reasons.

To be 100% honest with you I greatly dislike it here, and want to go somewhere affordable-ish for about a week for vacation (probably in Europe).

Things I dislike here that I would like to avoid in the vacation destination:

  1. Insanely bad air pollution & cigarette smoking everywhere 24/7

  2. Lack of affordable/accessible good food

(Any ethnic cuisine I have tried tasted maybe at most 50% like how it should, even in very expensive restaurants. Supermarkets have extremely poor frozen food variety and the taste isn't good either. The food variety in general I find to be very poor. I just want a change because I think I am dying from nutrient and soul food deficiency)

  1. Extremely poor shopping experience

  2. Poor and inaccessible hiking

  3. Grumpiness of people/toxic behaviour

Honestly most of these factors would possibly be solved by going literally anywhere else with poor variety just for a change of pace.

Places I have been considering:

Poland (because they have good services) Portugal (affordable and good food?) Spain (high quality of living, outgoing people?) Albania (amazing nature) Czechia (more developed, so more variety) Estonia (kind of curious about a more affordable version of Scandinavia?)

I do like beaches but am hoping to go somewhere before summer hits full force because I don't tolerate extreme heat well. Sorry for the super long post, could really use some input

 

I'm in my late 20s now and I feel so much despair.

I think a huge factor that shaped my world is my breakup almost 3 years ago. I had dated several people, actually more than several, before then.

I feel like people think I am delusional when I say this, but he was genuinely the nicest person I've ever met in my life. I don't understand how it's possible for someone to have actually cared about me to the extent he did. At times I felt like he actually cared about me more than my own mom did. It wasn't just that, he was intelligent and hilarious too and we had a lot in common.

Unfortunately I wasn't good enough for him and he didn't want to continue the relationship. This basically fundamentally broke me.

I had my share of heartbreaks before, but even when I met him, I was basically at my breaking point with love. I remember telling myself this was my last try (because I was so done). To this day I literally have no idea how I could have so much in common with someone. It's like we completely agreed on almost every aspect in life. Did he just lie to me or agree with everything I said or something?

Apparently he has also had random acquaintances tell him he's a breath of fresh air and so nice to be around compared to most people, so it's not just me.

I really don't know what to do other than cry about losing him. I've tried so hard to find happiness for myself but how could I let something like that go?

My life hasn't gotten any better since then and I honestly think I am hopeless. Genuinely.

Literally everyone pales in comparison to what I had with him. Even though what I had clearly wasn't real, because ultimately he clearly didn't feel the same about me since he chose to leave. It felt real to me, talking to him is the most enjoyable thing I had experienced in my life.

This all sounds extremely sad and pathetic but really what am I supposed to do? I bet most people haven't even come close to meeting someone like him so they can't relate to this at all. I am going to sound insane again but I think he is some prodigy or something. Like one of those one in a million once in a lifetime people that most won't even get the chance to meet.

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